Today was my 30th birthday! So I just wanted to write a little something, because it's a milestone. Having said that, I don't really know what, haha.
It's been quite a nice day. I had college, and instead of normal lessons we had the practical part of our synoptic assessment. So I spent most of the day in the library working on an assignment, and then a couple of hours outside in the afternoon clearing some pond vegetation. The snow showers were amusing! but the physical work meant we kept warm, and I'm glad it was fairly easy and straightforward so I didn't get frustrated like I usually do in practicals. But I had some lovely messages from friends in the morning, and this evening has been very nice, just spent at home, I got some really lovely gifts and enjoyed some yummy food :) Looking forward to more celebrations over the weekend.
Of course, I don't feel any different to yesterday. But I do feel different from two years ago. Generally, my teens and twenties weren't that great, although of course there were good times which I do need to remember. Much of it was filled with depression, anxiety, low self-esteem, stress, loneliness, feeling stuck and directionless, and things I would rather forget. But I have come a long way, and over the last couple of years things have changed. I'm now the happiest I've ever been. I'm on a path I want to be on and that feels right, even if I don't know what's ahead and am a bit nervous. I understand myself better and accept myself more, and am clearer about what I do and don't want. I'm figuring out ways to deal with things I find difficult. I'm comfortable and content, and have some wonderful friends and family. So, actually, I'm quite looking forward to my thirties, they may be my best years yet :)
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